I guess I didn’t tank it as much as I thought I did!

Now we wait…

I know with old age comes with forgetfulness and stubborness, grandma. But we repeated it since the first conception of trip- bring clothes.
1. Because it’s cold.
2. Because we do not want to give Aunt Hoa the satisfaction of knowing what happens on our end.
3. I would’ve carried it so it’s no hassle. You sit there in the wheel chair and let me do everything anyways.

Because it all just tarnishes Mom’s responsiblities as a daughter. She even went out and bought you warm clothes JUST FOR THIS TRIP. You know Mom doesn’t even shop on her own. She took out time just to buy clothes for you and you don’t even bring them? We have to resort your granddaughter’s clothes because you only brought one outfit and two coats? Understand please. It’s Mom’s percieved appearance that is now looked down upon… and we both know she works so hard and doesn’t deserve that. 

Stop trying to look for something and just go with the damn flow of things. Stop being the try-er if people wanted to keep you their life- they’d make the effort.

It never bothered me that much until I realized it. Well not realize- I mean you guys actually got out of your way to make me get the picture. Maybe I just more sentimental?

We don’t hug our close friends… Eric you should know this by now.

Guess I didn’t and it never bothered me that much before.

Good luck and have a safe trip back! Although it would’ve been nice to see you a last time/get a call back/be told the day you were actually leaving since you weren’t sure before. Hope everything turns out well and don’t stressed too much =/

I took my trip finally. Unexpected but it worked out.The Foodie adventure! Hopefully my future other will get it because I don’t think anyone close me to understands the foodiness of it all.

Auntie April’s Chicken, Waffles, & Soul Food

San Wang Restaurant

Delicious Dim Sum

Sushirrito was closed until January. dhjfhsdhfdjkshsdjk FUCKKKKKKKKKKK I drove around twice looking for parking only to find out it was closed.

I wanted the company but at the same time I don’t want to be a bother to anyone.

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You guys could’ve gave me a straight up answer when I asked- but didn’t.

I don’t know. I’m not sure. We’ll see.

And you guys still didn’t even contact me to even give me a final answer. I had to hear it through Andy.
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I didn’t want to wake you up. As close as we are in regards to this BROMANCE they talk about, I feel like I drag you everywhere and for that I’m sorry. I’ve come to depend on you too much when I need company.
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Thanks for the invite, but had there been no plans at all I still would’ve made something up. I’ve had “too much time to think” as someone blatantly pointed out. And through it all I realized I can’t stand trying so fucking hard for someone and they could just walk away. You are the reason I’ve changed. For better? I believe so. You’ve taught me to distrust trust. You alone taught me that no one is that nice no matter how nice they act and seem.
With that I’ve concluded that my new outlook is that anyone who stumbles into my life has ONE SHOT to stay in my life. Anymore effort on my part is senseless.

Sums up the new Me.